Wednesday, June 13, 2018

accident

A good poem , in response to Tony's death.
here.https://www.rattle.com/call-if-you-need-me-by-sonia-greenfield/


Yesterday I had a bill to pay @ the studio, I waited until early evening, road still visible, after rush hour, used the quiet back roads. and BOOM! Damned if I did not get rear ended by a car that got rear ended harder. Anyway, not a great thing for my neck.

Today I slept about five hours, ate a bunch of comfort food , got fatter, called a friend . We have known each other since we were in diapers...that is a long time! We don't do idle chit chat...no, we land smack in the middle of relationships, the depth of love for our kids, what illness tells us, and always mortality. Sometimes we have good ideas. Sometimes we draw a blank. But always, we love each other deeply.

We are both gobsmacked at our lives, our age, our dreams gone by the wayside...but here we are, one on oxygen the other with a crumbling neck...no more head banging rock and roll for us. AND this is the tomorrow we really had not expected, We want more, we are tired, but we want more. At that place where we jump or cling. My neck hurts , I hope a screw was not blasted out of the hardware holding my neck onto my head. Maybe an X-ray tomorrow, but I swear , if they find that another surgery is required, I will jump! (so I say now) -  My oldest dearest friend totally gets it. We will jump together, holding hands, yelling Hallelujah  (or "fuck it") waving our panties in the wind.
Stuff has been crazy lately-

13 comments:

  1. I’m sorry your neck hurts. I totally get everything you say here. But oh, to have a friend for life, who knows and loves you at such depth. It’s riches beyond measure. Take care of that neck. I hope all is well with it.

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    1. yes, we are lucky, it is better than having a sister, no sibling rivalry nor shared DNA. Not many have a friendship that lasts all through life! Thank you for the well wish, LOVE

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  2. easy to understand why some people check out, they just get tired of it all and don't want more. crash bad. had a similar thing happen to me only I got pushed into the car in front as well, crunch on both ends.

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    1. I usually leave a lot of space between me and the car in front, glad I do that or it would have been worse, like what you experienced. The hitter took off! Not sure if he ever came back or was caught.

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  3. Boy, oh boy---when you see your train is over the hill and heading for becoming "frail, or feeble or senile" I'm thinking a trip off a cliff waving your panties is not such a bad idea. We just have to think deeply about how such a ride would affect the ones left behind. As for getting hit when you're doing everything to stay safe --- DANG.

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    1. True about the effect of being gone on others. however, if I were to become senile, I think folks would push me in the direction of "get out of here!" For sure DANG!

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  4. LOL -- I saw that cartoon in The New Yorker. I certainly hope your neck doesn't need more surgical attention. Did the driver ever return to the scene? I think you said on Facebook that he was supposed to come back but hadn't yet...

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    1. Yes, he disappeared. He probably did not have a driver's license . Neck is OK , just shaken and hurty, but no need for another slice! YAY

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  5. Damn! Are you getting through? Just getting it all healed will be wonderful! I have a titanium plate holding C3 to C4. That was fifteen years ago. I forget to declare it, and set off the airport machine. Of course, so does much of the rest of me, so what the hell. I hope you get over the thump and the ride is better, soon.

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    1. Thank you...we are becoming bionic aren't we! We may rust but we will NEVER DIE!!!

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