Walking around the neighborhood, thinking about how one should always trust that gut feeling telling you to NOT do something or at least change the date of that something, hoping that the stars will aline perfectly and that gut feeling will subside.
I went forward with the eye surgery, because, you know, it was on the calendar, a commitment -but in my center I felt unease.
I feel a little bit tricked , like this poor kitty, humiliated- "I'll never forgive those humans- I will run away and hide until they are sorry and return my beautiful coat , I really do not care for humans at all"
Anyway- I do feel tricked , and abused- the surgery was brutal and disastrous , as it was happening I was very aware of things going wrong.
(((Age-Related Macular Degeneration
I went in just fine and came out with Macular degeneration , I can not see.
BUT, here is a good thing, the lad is still here, he may fly out to the island tomorrow , first though, he will take me to another eye guy in the morning. I did drive today , to get something from the grocery . Stopped to let a person cross the road only to realize that it was a power box on a short pole.
I am probably dangerous.
I am now beginning to feel uneasy about staying in Brixton for four and half months. Oh well, if it is too sketchy I will just eat the non refundable rent and go elsewhere, I am flexible that way...The stats are not great for Brixton, the most heavily crime ridden part of the city. Guess I will know when I get there, won't I.
So, people, this is just to remind you to trust yourself.